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2012-02-20T02:57:00.000+08:00

"taking all these shattered ones to the place we belong, where his love will conquer all"

Release, Relief, Remember.

2012-01-15T01:29:00.003+08:00

Let go and Breathe but never forget.

" To be part of the Great story, is the posture of the heart, daily taking up our crosses"

Small and hidden choices, but sets up the story of whether we're gonna be in the story of God's Kingdom, or be put on the sidelines. – The Great I Am.

Lionheart.

2011-09-27T10:27:00.003+08:00

;'lion-heart' – is used for a person who possesses exceptional courage and fortitude.

He is a very brave person. It means he was a very fearless person.

He can deal with any kind of danger or fear.

–

I've never seen myself before

Spending all my time in promised lands

Our home, the only place I've ever known

I'm not alone

Lionheart you are the one who had my back from the start

The very start, Lionheart

Over and over and this is how it ends

Time after time my passion never ends

This is where we came from

This is were we met

Faces remembered we'll never forget

Now is our chance to make a stand

This is the era of the common man

Burn us alive

With the fire that's in our eyes

Burn us alive

Our bodies end where our souls survive

Over and over

Time after time

This is how it ends

Remember this.

2011-06-24T01:57:00.000+08:00

"It starts not from Others to God; but from God to Others."

Amen

2011-06-06T01:58:00.001+08:00

We will crown you
King forever
Living Savior
Jesus Redeemer
Lord of Heaven
Clothed in majesty
Crowned in glory
Creation adores you

2011-05-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

By the time I was your age I'd give anything to fall in love truly

was all I could think,

that's when I met your mother

the girl of my dreams,

the most beautiful woman that I'd ever seen.

She said boy can I tell you a wonderful thing?

"I can't help but notice you staring at me,

I know I shouldn't say this, but I really believe,

I can tell by your eyes that you're in love with me."

Now son, I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things.

Now most of the time we'd have too much to drink

and we'd laugh at the stars and share everything.

Too young to notice and too dumb to care,

love was a story that couldn't compare.

I said girl can I tell you a wonderful thing?

"I made you a present with paper and string,

open with care now, I'm asking you please,

you know that I love you,

will you marry me?"

Now son I'm only telling you this because life can do terrible things

you'll learn one day, and I hope and I pray that God shows you differently.

She said boy can I tell you a terrible thing?

"It seems that I'm sick and I've only got weeks.

Please don't be sad now, I really believe,

you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me."

Slow, so slow, I fell to the ground on my knees.

So don't fall in love there's just too much to lose

if you're given the choice, I'm begging you choose to walk away, walk away,

don't let it get you, I can't bare to see the same happen to you.

Now son, I'm only telling you this, because life can do terrible things.

Warmth.

2011-03-04T17:04:00.004+08:00

Monochromatic pictures are beginning to make me scared.

so scared. So scared i don't even want to begin to think of it.

please. take care.

So when the day comes.

2011-01-17T14:11:00.001+08:00

They'll throw flowers down,

And tears will come running down their face.

As they say goodbye and say that I've gone to a better place.

Aware, Rust, Repair.

2010-12-23T18:01:00.002+08:00

So, i was out for awhile just now and nostalgia just kicked me in the ass.

It started off by walking pass a kindergarten which I have not walked pass since secondary school days, low and behold they were having a christmas party inside as I looked in the windows.

It dawned upon me that i was ever so carefree when i was soooooo young. We would spend hours just sitting in front on the tv just watching shows and not give a shit about the world.

Not long after, walking pass a playground near my place was always dead and ever so silent, but today was so different. There was a sudden outburst of kids, running around playing ice catching. It's as if there was a new neighbourhood of young kids.

These were the good stuff in life that i used to enjoy so much! Back in the primary school days, I could totally neglect my work just to play with my neighbours. Despite our different races, our age were so similar.

Entirely busy with the stuff that we're all caught in now, the things that we're doing that we say are fun, isit really a mere evolution of what we call "fun"? or are we really just stripped away from what we used to enjoy in life.

Happiness

2010-11-12T18:17:00.004+08:00

Grace, don't ever be afraid.
Life has been heavy but don't lose your ways.
Take just take what you can.
You will never find all the pieces you gave away.

Don't look back, run from their teeth.
They don't understand the pain and the price you'll pay.
Watch the days filter your strength away until it's too late to see you happy again.

Grace, I watched her cry in her room when we were young.
Time never saved us from those days.
And I never found a reason to forget until I believed what you said.

Don't look back, run from their teeth.
They don't understand the pain and the price you'll pay.
Watch the days filter your strength away until it's too late to see you happy again.

I can't believe how you illuminate your beautiful face in the dark.
When the rest of the moonlight died without the sun,
But it'll always be fine.

Grace, I've tried so hard to do this on my own. But I'm nothing like you.
No, I'll never see life through without you.
Without you...

So dn't look back, run from their teeth.
They don't understand the pain and the price you'll pay.
Watch the days filter your strength away until it's too late to see you happy again.

I swear kenny choi writes brilliant lyrics, it really sinks deep

into your soul when you're listening to his songs.

For the past few weeks that i've not been blogging, a lot has happened,

but that's not what i'm going to be blogging about.

But i'm good.

It has been awhile since i actually went to a gig, and to the most extreme, i went to a hardcore gig. Loads of people doing hardcore two steps and all the other stuff, but it felt good to be back in the music scene. Not to mention 2011 will be a great year starting it off with Asking Alexandria, Set your Goals & Four year strong. I'm so gonna get merchs.

oh and btw, support him

www.myspace.com/deathandacure

good stuff, peace out

It's not that i'm brave.

2010-10-23T02:27:00.004+08:00

I love singing a lullaby till she sleeps.

& how her smile makes the sunflowers jealous.

Psalms 13:3

2010-10-12T01:00:00.001+08:00

Give light to my eyes, or i will sleep in death.

Relief

2010-09-24T00:20:00.001+08:00

And I know you're thinking the worst..

It's in those eyes at, first.

It's neither good, or bad,

So please, show me your thoughts..

So please show me, your thoughts..

And so please show me, what I meant to believe.

I will carry on

2010-09-13T09:28:00.005+08:00

"I may not be perfect, but i'm awesome"

- Alex & Janelle

My God

So desperately I watch them calling for you.

To bring down your hands.

To make this all okay.

To make us whole again,

Us whole again.

And now,

So desperately I have been calling for you.

To bring down your hands.

To make this all okay.

To bring me home.

And he said:

I will carry you home again, home tonight.

I will carry you to let you fly, to let you fly.

And now,

So desperately I have been waiting for you.

To bring down your hands.

To make this all okay.

To make me whole again.

I know that this is the way.

I know this is the way you planned for it.

I will carry you home again, home tonight.

I will carry you to let you fly, to let you fly.

From close to closed.

2010-08-11T01:00:00.003+08:00

Lesson #1. Everyone has flaws.

Some day she'll understand.

2010-07-27T02:36:00.003+08:00

Can't feel the chains on our souls.

Cross my heart i hope to die.

2010-07-19T02:03:00.002+08:00

Really wishes to know what went wrong.
please tell me.

You kept me from falling apart

2010-07-10T22:57:00.005+08:00

Photography by Alex Nikon D200
The world is a big and scary place, but when we picture it to be small. Life isn't such a scary place after all. I've told myself this, Hold on to the good memories and let go of the painful ones.
It's time to move on Alex.
& i think it'll be something promising up ahead.

"You see, they say that people shrivel up because they have an imagination. So, don't imagine anything, you'll become brave as hell." - Mr. Park

We shot the moon.

2010-07-05T17:58:00.001+08:00

Starbucks on Sunday was nice.

You found a place between the lights
Of yesterday I could not hide
We can make it, if we only try
We can make it.

And there you are in perfect time
You're standing still
You're hands in mine
And I love you for who you are
And I love you, just how you are

You are, you are the only one for me
And you are, you are the only one for me
I tried for years to get this right
And I'm not about to lose this fight.
To lose this fight

The longest mile I'll walk with you
If your sky falls I'll pull you through
And I love you, for who you are.
And I love you, stay who you are.

You are, you are the only one for me
And you are, you are the only one for me
I tried for years to get this right
And I'm not about to lose this...

I don't have to write it down
I know that you'll be around
When the days are long the loves goes on
And everything that has gone wrong
Is brought into the light

You are, you are the only one for me
And you are, you are the only one for me
I tried for years to get this right
And I'm not about to lose this fight.
To lose this fight

Maybe then we'll find the time we've lost.

2010-06-29T22:41:00.011+08:00

Awhile back, Kids thought me lessons i've lost
in my journey on life.
Remember the times when we were four? So amazed by the city lights and what the world has to offer just by looking out into the windows or the MRT. & how ignorant we were to what the world has to say about us? Mannerisms & looks.

How could we ever leave that behind us.
Somehow, i wished that i would live life with a simple mind. To just run away happily and lying side by side with the person you love counting the stars till we fall asleep.

Another kid thought me a lesson, on how we've lost the fun of being anyone and anything that we could imagine.
Watching two kids play superheroes in the mrt station reminds me so much of my childhood. Remember the times when we would annoy our neighbours parents just to beg for their child to come out to play?
& how we would run around the corridors playing with anything we could find? shooting down each other with plastic butter knifes.

Now, it's just the half hearted smile and awkward silences when we cross paths. From what used to be the closest of all buddies, to total strangers.
So smile! like how we used to.

because the most valuable lesson i've learnt from God,
is that we have a choice.
To decide whether will i live my life carrying an atmosphere of sadness and grief, Or to carry ourselves with joy and patience.

I'm trying my hardest to carry myself with the atmosphere of joy, so that i will rub it off to people around me. To be there for people when they need it, to cheer them up even if they don't need it.

Be strong for me, For I'll be strong for you.

2010-06-28T20:35:00.001+08:00

Sheesha shisha on the sheshore, movin her body like a fuckin WHORE!!

Two steps forward

2010-06-07T00:03:00.003+08:00

Read it.

In the middle of September we entertained the thought
of falling into rabbit holes and never coming out
in the garden of a girl who's mum is friends with Elton John, so she kept telling us
we just let it pass

and slipped a year or so behind ourselves
the time's already gone,
when people were just people not the jobs that they perform
our songs were just a thing we did with melody's and chords
now you're available in all good record stores.

but
i knew you best back when love was just a feeling that ran out between my legs onto the,
back of my dress
onto the clothes that i was wearing

when i was a child i was expected to believe
in something up above that no one touches or can see
but now they tell me that unless you're looking out of magazines well then you don't exist but i knew that you were real before i read it
in an interview today before i used you as a surface - did a line across your face
in the toilet of a girl who's sitting outside dropping names like they were carpet bombs, she knows everyone

but, i knew you first back when love was underneath you with my fingers in the dirt,
you said "i'll stop if it hurts"
you said "i'll stop it if it's scary,"
you said "you know that i can stop this any time,
if you think that it is tearing"
and i think of you when the leaves are brown,
i think of leaves that i have felt against my body on the ground
i think of places where we could go to now until they find us 'til they catch us, 'til they wake us and
we drown until I know where i am
i'm in a garden of remembering your fingers in my hand, were like a book made of sand
was like the book that i was reading, was like the book that i had with me all the time
to tell me i was breathing

and its the middle of September.
your image starts to fade into the one that they have printed on the 27th page
don't like to read these things you know i do it anyway i have no choice
have no choice i say

and i go out into the garden the birds begin to sing i am troubled by the thought of all the daylight they will bring
i think that i will let somebody take me home again before the evening ends i will forget with them that i..
knew you at all
that my love was underneath you making puddles on the floor
and that i sleep to the thought of
two people walking two steps forward always to the lives they've chosen clicks and hums and sirens and the sun
of two people walking two steps forward always to the lives they've chosen, clicks and hums and sirens and the sun
of two people walking two steps forward always to the lives we've chosen clicks and hums and silence and the sun

Yellow Birds & Coal Mines.

2010-06-03T23:21:00.003+08:00

Photography by myself, location Labrador park jetty.

Maybe Venus was right all along,

maybe putting your heart into forging relationships is wrong
maybe everything that i've figured was all an illusion
maybe things are meant to flow naturally
maybe there's no need to actually try your hardest to find someone special
maybe, just maybe.
i was wrong.

Hey Unfaithful.

2010-05-28T14:46:00.003+08:00

If your opinion of someone ever changes because of the people that surrounds you,
It only comes to show how fickle and weak your mind is.
Just a thought.

I will teach you to be stronger.

He had everything that wasn't me.

2010-05-24T13:44:00.002+08:00

Your bitter goodbye is ringing through this quiet night,
This idle hour just wont pass
I've never missed you this much, never thought I would,
Didn't think you'd feel so far away
And your summer perfume is still blowing through this hallway,
Autumn's amber red shadows dance
I miss our midnight rides on highway 18,
18 is gone

And so go past the lights and all the excuses
You could have left "sincerely yours"
Don't you think it's obvious that I want to say more?
Cause anything too daring to say to you,
Will be said in this letter, then burned away
So you never realize,
I'm here

I'm thinking of your vague reply
So I can understand
Why we put this at rest
Why we forget to
Say that we were leaving
And say that we were sorry
The past remains unspoken
As this vacant night is dying

But I still miss your summer perfume
This cold air brings in such a distance to us
Such a painful distance
And I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now
So I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old, getting old
And while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me.

I've learn to hate myself

2010-05-21T23:31:00.006+08:00

She whispered the words that "I'll miss you"
Said I'll be back sometime before our hearts grow cold.

But, i'm the only firefly in her jar!

Life has been a tide of emotion these few days.
i honestly do not know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's time to be silent, or maybe it's time for me to go back to my roots.
you know it's like i've never really give up on love, i just get fed up and force myself to not want it, but still deep inside me, i want it more than my next breath.

Sleep. is. for. the. weak.

Note to Self:
What will be my last thought as i draw my last breath?

What's yours?

If you call me at all

2010-05-11T22:36:00.001+08:00

hi anna, i miss your annoyance.
please come back to my life.

Exhale, and Breathe.

2010-04-30T00:55:00.004+08:00

Feel as though a load off your shoulder has been lifted eh?
taking deep breaths sometimes never felt so good.

I've not slept since Wednesday, Rushed my work pulling myself together paid of pretty well with a rewarding weekend. An unoccupied Friday just could not get any better.
oh wait, but there's SA meeting, darn.

Overall, Life's been well. Ups & Downs as usual, getting used to my new classmates, and most importantly adapting back to the fast paced workload of Designs.
the sleepless night was the kicker that started off the adaptation that i had lost over the holidays.

I've found a new artist that i like.

"City Walker" - ink on paper - 11" x 11 By Lawrence Yang.

Be Strong for me, & i'll be Strong for You.

To keep her somewhere safe.

2010-04-08T12:00:00.003+08:00

"Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live."-Norman Cousins

Don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. All they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves.

I know i haven't been updating this space for quite awhile and i'm sorry.

i've had like so much in my head that i just dont know wheree to start.

and so i've decided to just share my thoughts now.

Funny how when we were kids, we were all geeks

and the meaning of "Cool" was sooo different?

Remember the days where :

1. The higher the shorts that were tucked in was the measure of how cool we are.

2. Shoes needed to be white, the more white the shoe is, the cooler you were.

3. Hair didn't matter one bit.

4. All of us were pretty much the same size, with the few exception of those who mature faster than others.

And i guess we'd never trade our priceless memories when we were young for anything.

& with all happy memories that we gain, it's shadow follows us with the painful memories.

But hey, i guess it having a memory of having a childhood beats any gaming nerds around these days.

I'm finally growing old.

soon enough, i'm gonna hit the 20th mark.

time flies.

I kinda miss her

i kinda miss venus.

I.Miss.Us.

Life is a maze, Love is a riddle, & Death is a masterpiece.

2010-03-06T17:21:00.002+08:00

Come back, Come back to me.

Our Rights, Our Wrongs.

2010-02-23T17:23:00.004+08:00

Roses are red, Violets are blue

they're all out of stock.

would Sunflowers do?

The short weekend of rest has passed real fast, catching up with old friends

just spending time with family, & of course, wasting my time on the computer.

It's been a suprising Sunday, never would i thought i'd come across Kimberly twice.

Such a coincidence, i wish the relationship between you two well.

Kudos.

I met a woman once, I gave her my best shot

2010-02-19T01:12:00.002+08:00

I really think no one cares anymore.

When our time is up.

2010-02-09T20:55:00.004+08:00

& i've lost who i am, & i can't understand

why my heart is so broken, rejecting your love

without, love gone wrong, lifeless words carry on

& i know, but i know that the end's begining

who i am from the start, take me home to my heart

let me go i will run, i will not be silent

all this time spent in vain, wasted years,wasted gain

all is lost, hope remains

& this war's not over

There's a light, there's a sun

taking all these shattered ones

to a place we belong

& his love will conquer all.

I Still Miss Your Summer Perfume.

2010-02-09T18:02:00.003+08:00

(casio exlim, photography by me)

the 1m x 1m board painting assignment has finally come.

I am excited yet afraid. i wished i had the skill to paint it with the exact colours, but i doubt so.

i hope all goes well.

OH and i coloured an apple with pastels!!! like seriously super proud of it, i will upload it when i have the time to take picture. I can't wait till the block ends, gonna do a cover of "If it means alot to you" by ADTR.

i'm all excited for it.

Life these few days has been in a mess.

Like all the shit that has been happening around me, it's really taking a toll on me.

But i believe that God has kept me safe, and is pulling me through.

Giving me strength and comfort that he's keeping us safe.

" to keep you somewhere safe so they don't break apart."

& i really do miss someone now.

i wished i could see you now.

like badly.

The Reaper crept in, took his breath away.

2010-02-02T00:51:00.005+08:00

Farewell grandpa.
You're missed.

(Nikon D2000, photography by me)

200 miles away from home.200 miles beneath this lake is where my heart belongs, but you don't care at all.You wouldn't even smile if I were screaming as the water filled my lungs.You demand to be chased for your love.My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.But you don't care at all.There's nothing I can do to draw you close to me.Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?I've been trying to ignore the best parts of you.I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow. Please be home tonight. I'll die if I don't get a chance to make this just right.I'm sorry but I can't forget about the way I feel every time you're here.What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed.Please be impressed.I'd go so far to please you but I bet you wouldn't care at all.Hopeless love, please leave me.This broken heart is far to weak to run for you this long.Why don't you care at all?I'm dying for a place in your heart.Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.And now I regret the day we met.And help me forget your name.

The closest thing to me at heart

2010-01-28T17:17:00.004+08:00

is the furthest thing away to touch.

(Nikon D2000, photography by me)

When we were only kids,
and our time couldn't end
How long do we stand?
with the world in our hands.
-Shadows & Regrets.

Maybe that's why people don't want to grow old? they could live their life without a care for the world. Falling down, getting injured, having that funny red coloured liquid that starts flowing out of our very own flesh.
where play will last forever, & going to bed will be the last thing on our heads.

But funny how this is so different now, i know that i lived my kiddo days full of fun joy peace and laughter, but nowadays,
Small little kids with big cool glasses sitting in front of a computer screen shouting their asses off as if they were king of the world.
Vulgarities flying across the small room with loud blasting gunshots of guns made out of pixels.

(Nikon D2000, photography by me)

But i'm different, i'm looking forward to the future,
i wana get married, Spend time with my loved one.
Watch my kids grow up.

In a way, i think being old is somewhat similar to being young.
it's just that they both feel a different joy,
one being so carefree
the other being contended.

But all these feels so far away.
just like the horizon.

Dear Anna.

2010-01-27T23:45:00.002+08:00

To a friend,
i think i kinda miss talking to you.
I miss making you laugh even though i know it isn't meant to be funny.
Get well soon.

(my apologies for not blogging properly, i risk the chance of getting disconnected and the handicap of a 90% chance not being able to upload photos, so yup sorry guys! )

Jiayi Tektonikatz

2010-01-19T00:07:00.005+08:00

PS4
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*WINKS

Hello jiayi, After giving you this link i'm sure you'll be able to read my blog
and probably forget my link soon after
HAHAAHAHAHAH

yes i know you have stm. but it's okay!
thank you for dedicating a post for me
so now i am dedicating this post to you! hahaha and noooo

i'm pretty sure there's other people reading your blog
i'm sure of it!

this song is dedicated to you!

What are we fighting for.

2010-01-14T23:46:00.002+08:00

Hello peeps.
this Blog post is gonna be short.
due to the very fact that my comp has problems.

i will not blog bout life
but i'll just put down a statement
my dear friend has said to me.

"I will continue whacking you in heaven when i get there"

Dear Annalisa,
Wacking me in heaven will not do me any justice.
And since you're gonna say that on my death bed, i'll make sure i'll wait at the gates of heaven with a very nice SUPRISE.

Peace out.

City & Colour

2010-01-09T00:41:00.003+08:00

These few days of school has not really been a good one.
for the first time i really want to get it over and done with.
It is Ridiculously Retarded, we do not have ample time to do our work, and the worst part is that we have to meet up with real clients over the weekends.
like what the fuck.

this is just ridiculous.

Check out her photography. it's quite amazing how she does her shots.

http://pretty-as-a-picture.deviantart.com/art/nirrimi-110388871

Leave behind the worst we've known

2010-01-06T01:04:00.005+08:00

We'll build ourselves a brand new home
& maybe then we'll find the time we've lost.

yes, this picture is still in Singapore.
I am so drained from school.
it's not so much of shitloads of crap to do, but it's the unclear instructions and examples that's missing. The annoyance of having printed a nice piece of paper, only to feel crushed that your paper is accidentally torn is getting the best of me.

& i think i haven't really gotten over Venus.
this is so wierd.
I am with a heavy heart, i pray that i get through this week.
Kudos.

You, Yourself, and God.

2009-12-31T23:13:00.005+08:00

It's approximately 2mins or so till it reaches 2010.
Everyone is probably out there bashing someone up, or partying till their drunk.
Or, they can be spending time with loved ones, or closed ones.

Due to the factor of Change, this year's New Year day would be well spent with the smell of Hot fragrant tea, and some biscuits. What can i say, New year never felt so new for the first time, the fact that there's Sumbission due Monday, there's not really much of a celebration mood.

Today was well spend in school finishing up my Resume & Cover Letter, it was also well spend by practicing some vectoring and i feel happy that i'm able to vector out a nice eye.

I've really made a commitment to do a typograhic face of friends, & it's looking pretty harsh now.
i still need to refer to picture and study more on typefaces.

Ohhh look what i've got! i'm so bloody happy that i managed to get this trap.
yes yes i know it's damn childish, but hey! if you think of it the other way, look at the artwork!
i'm really glad i got this trap!! it was kinda race of time kinda thing!

A part of me is constantly screaming out for a better life, to live wild.
With not a concern to be nice to people, or Apologize to anyone.
with the irony that no one respects you when you're nice, cause they'll just pretend they did not see you. but the fact is that they're always yearning for someone to pay attention to their lives.

To learn that a book can never be judge by its cover.
the Contents can really disheartened you, and sometimes wish you never open page 1 of a persons life.

But then again, there's a part of me who knows that it's not the world which matters, it's what lies after it. Constantly trying my best to remain saint, to get rid of inner rage that arises proofs to be more challenging each year or phase of live.

God i pray for a better year, for better friends & for a stronger heart.
to be able to withstand future heartaches that i smell coming,
and to have a more sensible heart, to be able to be more sensitive to people.

i shall end off my post with Videos.
Dedicating all these songs to my loved ones.
happy new year.

Kudos Bitches

Dream.

2009-12-31T02:10:00.003+08:00

Dedicated to all dancers.

I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream

If you had to leave, Fullfill someone elses dream.

2009-12-29T21:54:00.005+08:00

i think i might totally be lost.

I'm having a really terrible Headache, so please bare with me for a boring blog post.

Closure in Moscow.

was the highlight for the weekend on the 1st week of my pathetic 2 week holidays.

Helping out at the booth was a blast, well it didn't beat the crowd at baybeats, and was dissapointed that the Hensley Red that i wanted to get was out. it was still impressive,

These guys were amazing, Chris and the band are really friendly people, and probably can talk to them just about anything

went to meet them at scape lab and talked with them, hahah and to enter to a floor filled with puke due to food poisoning.
MERRY X'MAS GUYS, HOPE YOU ENJOYED EATING DURIANS.

credits to Nor Ashrough

credits to Nor Ashrough

Hello guys, here i am to blog after a really long while.

From the last thing i've blogged, it's all about misery.

Let me see, 14 days of not blogging, i really have been all out.

Really caught up with friends i really needed to catch up with, for those who aren't free, it only shows how serious you are into a friendship, but it's okay, i understand. The world is always filling up every second that you guys have.

i've really been going out so much, there i really have 0 time for myself.

it's really too short to have a 2 week holiday knowing that you're gonna spend it all away with no time for yourself. but hey, i guess it all went well knowing that you're sacrificing your time to spend time with others you cherish.

Merry Belated Christmas to you all!!

don't have the pictures with me now, but i hope i get it soon! in any case, Christmas was somewhat well spent with family and friends.

How i wish there would be snow! like really snowwww...

I'm really into folk again, like really miss the slow sweet sound of voices and funny tempo to their guitar. The sweet melody of someone's voice to bring your soul to ease.

Okay, drawing back from the freshest of memories, i shall blog more about camp.

Pictures are not up at all, cos the photographers are probably dead beat, i wouldn't blame them.

Church Camp was really a blast, not so much of games and all, but it really helped me boost up my prayer life.

On top of that, i'm really glad to make friends with many people, some hi-bye people whom i hope to develop friendships in the future, and that's if i could get a chance to in the near future.

It's really hillarious to be able to work with christie in the pass 2 days of camp, the way she says hello would just bring a smile to anybody face! like seriously.

Staying up till 4am to finish up an artwork for the next day was really interesting, can't wait to blog up the pictures of the masterpiece.

Goodnight, Witness light.

I'll Hear You More if i Just Lay Down.

2009-12-15T13:44:00.006+08:00

mis⋅er⋅y

1.	wretchedness of condition or circumstances.

2.	distress or suffering caused by need, privation, or poverty.

3.	great mental or emotional distress; extreme unhappiness.

4.	a cause or source of distress.

I'd have to say i'm pretty much feeling like shit.
i think my life is in a mess.
Nothing seem to matter anymore, it's like i try to make things happen but all i get is nothing.
I can see that you'll be enjoying yourself, i know i won't. But i'll try.

i haven't felt this much heartache in ever.
but now the pain just feels so eminent and painful.
the sharp and piercing pain coursing through your entire body, making your body feel heavy,
bringing your eyes to tears.

Goodbye.

There was a furnace in your voice.

2009-12-13T20:21:00.002+08:00

Hello all, i'm back here to blog after a very exhausting month.
Typo & Layout class had really sparked off an interest for me,
i really wana pursue to be a very good designer.
1. get my basics right
2. memorize and practice the grids
3. touch up on basics, and break of rules.
4. inspire others.

Okay, i must put this picture up again, isn't she so cute!
gosh. Anyways, Credits to Tommy for this picture.

The nostalgia that i'm constantly in has really surfaced in the real world. It's quite suprising how my judgements on others, and dislikes i had in the past are all back to haunt me. However, i'm not really affected by it, and honestly, i'm actually looking forward to it. I smell an opportunities to change, and i'm gonna grasp it this time.

I'm in the midst of a new song. it's getting somewhere.
things to do with stars and city lights. I hope i can get it right just this once.
i really want to.

Credits to Aaron nace.

So what can i say? School has been quite a bitch. Not so much of school, but entirely on a person.
You bloody schemer, i hope that justice will prevail some other time and i hope it hits you like a bullet train.
you're just lucky i'm nice enough to let the matter drop.

Holidays are short and packed.
Give me a ring if you wana meet up.
Ciao!

Firecracker.

2009-11-28T21:11:00.003+08:00

.

You gave me the hope i really needed in a very long while.
But i was too stupid to believe.
turns out you're just like everyone else.

Watched fireproof,
a really good show. it kinda had sparked off a really deeps sense of feeling towards my relationship with christ. it made me reflect.

just know i'll never tell.

It isn't much, But it's enough

2009-11-27T02:08:00.003+08:00

"So I'll sing

A melody

And hope to God she's listening

Sleeping softly while I sing

And I'll be your memories

Your Lullaby for all the times

Hoping that my voice can get it right"

God grant me rest.

i'm weary, sick and drained.

I pray that you'll help me pull through the toughest times that i'm facing.

Please Guide me.

Amen

She moved away.

2009-11-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

Magicthegathering artworks never ceases to amaze me. Every artwork detailed on a single image that is being reduced to a mere card. From canvas to cardboard.

the passion that these artists have is just amazing, and something that some can show respect to.
the time they have to paint these, the "idea" that is given to them, and simply their skills.

Okay, i'm still in a sense of nostalgia, my eyes are so weary from the exhaustion i had since tp rawks, i really need to sleep like a pig. Today was quite dry, back to idividual typing, individual research, individual reports. To add on, there's Typography.

Anyways, After watching the ATL mtv unplugged live.
it really plunged me into nostalgia.
Remebering my past, and the really old days.
it brought back soo much memories, of both good and bad.
right & wrong.

now this place seems familiar to me

she pulled on my hands with a devilish grin

she led me upstairs

left me dying to get in

solitude and silence, we've all build our defenses.

Love Me Butch

2009-11-21T00:24:00.003+08:00

as u can see, there's the black line
and the blue line
i'm gonna love the black line
ALOT.

just like the sensational smell of awseome mutton rending from the wedding at the 1st floor of my htb block.
rocks
your
socks
nights.

One Day Women Will All Become Monsters.

2009-11-17T19:41:00.005+08:00

Indeed they all will.
In any case, i'm retardedly exhausted, and tommorow will not be any better.
But i'm in a happy mood! okay
wait
Happiness shouldnt be used.
that emotion is almost fictional.

I've come to a realisation that this is my 1st week of another block, and i'm already tensed up with school work. It's so ridiculous.

Take these misunderstandings, and send them back where they came from
take these misunderstandings, it's hard enough to live life as it is.

Photography by Alex, NikonD200

Typogrpahy + marketing for designers isn't a good combination at all.

must do well for Typography
Must.
Must.
Must.
Must.

alright, it's time i stop blogging.
research ah RESEARCH!
oh & btw, i think coloured contacts just makes you look fake.

Face Me or Face Off.

2009-11-10T23:56:00.003+08:00

Photography has ended.
a good 3 weeks of learning it was.
& i thank God for pulling me through.
Thank you.

Honestly, i'm quite tired to do any serious blogging now,

just feel that i should post up some pictures.

Italian test tommorow.

Italian listening tommorow.

Italian Quiz tommorow.

die.

Keeping Pace With Planes.

2009-11-10T00:54:00.002+08:00

I've been wanting to blog for awhile, but just couldn't bring myself to sit and wait for the few pictures to be uploaded.
Honestly, there was a shitload of pictures i wanted to upload, but i'll save that once i've settled down ( i highly doubt so )

Final sumbission tmrw, and my photos are just average
i must admit myself.
But i'm still thankfull to God for pulling me through, no doubt the weather wasn't really to my advantage with regards to the topic i was assigned, i still tried my best.

I'm not asking for a distiction or an A, but hopefully a flat B.

Nice huh? well i forgot where i found this photo from, but it's not taken by me,
Credits to whoever who took this shot.
it's shot at East Coast Park during sunset.
Beautiful composition,
but apparently, they closed off that section of the beach.
so i was unable to capture a similar moment.

Life's been pretty tough, and i know you're enjoying every single bit that i'm an unhappy person.
So, Stop pretending will you?
pleasethankyou.

I wish i could be a child once again, so careless and carefree
& with all the attention that's always been given to you.
Credits to tommy for this photo, i don't understand how mathias would not like this.

Okay, time to pick up my lazy spine and write up the short speech
Goodnight.

You held my hand, Saying how scared you were.

2009-11-05T17:44:00.002+08:00

Walking pass the freshly turned off vehicles
with the almost distracting heat that's emitting from these monsters
accompanied by the cool of the weather
which has proved to be quite a nuisance in my strive for time.

My day has been quite a dissapointing one
i'm utterly crushed that i do not even have 1 photo that's good
and i have only 4 more days to shoot 6 frames in probably 6 different places.

Dear God, if you see this,
help me,
please.

The city takes five.

2009-11-04T00:30:00.004+08:00

Okay, i've forgotten to take out the double exposure photo i did on the city scape, it was quite a nice shot.

I'm just so sleepy now, don't feel like doing anything, the time is ticking, but i'm really out of luck this time, i just hope God can pull me through this week, seriously need all the prayers that can be provided.

It's so shitty, there's camera shake even though i was using a tripod, and the camera takes forever to focus, it just cant find an exact focal point.

i'll just hope that mathias would like at least 1 shot from tonight.

Thanks Yu'en for accompanying, owe you one.

Stress is so not my middle name.

2009-11-01T22:55:00.003+08:00

Definitely not singapore.

Today was quite a wierd day for myself.

i slept at 3am, woke up at 10.

For a sunday morning to wake up to, 10am is pretty dissapointing i would say.

it would really have been great if i woke up at 1.

in any case.

i am ubberly in panic mode as i have shit loads of places to travel within this week to go shooting.

with the utterly soft reminder that i still have italian classes in the morning

it can be quite a clash with my shooting dates.

marina barrage

Ubin

Labrador jetty

my life is average

2009-11-01T02:00:00.004+08:00

i am so tired.

i feel so drained, and exhausted.

life's been pretty much sucking every inch of life i have,

the time i have for myself seem to have shortened by pretty much

Celebrated Daniel 21st birthday, pretty good one it was,

really catched up with quite alot of people,

and i was like the youngest there

how sad.

Best wishes daniel.

Photography final assignment has been established,

plans to go out and shoot is pretty stressfull.

anyone interested to go out with me to be shot at/ shoot with me, tell me.

i hope i can pull myself together.

i'm starting to wear thin.

Chin up

2009-10-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

I will cut all the nonsensical stuff today.
i'll just note 2 things.
1. i've a total of 10 ulcers on my lips, it hurts so bad.

2. Copeland is no more.
i feel really down.
a really good band that have disband.

More Birds, More Luck!

2009-10-26T19:18:00.004+08:00

photography by Alex, Nikkon D200
Hot and sunny day, but without hesitation i'd have to make the effort to go out and take shots.
shot only bout 60 frames or so. Didn't really get much, but oh well, getting 1 or 2 is better than getting Zero.

Okay.
i have to get this off my chest, i am so fucking irritated on how Old people can behave like they own the world.
yes blah blah blah they are wiser, blah blah blah old fragile.
u know what
fuck them.
I can't understand how they can get so worked up on getting off the bus.
here we are standing packed like a sardine can in a bus, and u can freaking squeeze your fatty ass out of the chair and add more squeeze.
No. seriously, you just had to spoil my day of having to almost fall thanks to the shaky bus and your fat ass.

Photography by Alex, Nikkon D200
Okay, sumbission tommorow, i hope it turns out to mathias liking, if i had any of his photos i would gladly post it up.
it's just simply breath taking.

Photography by Alex, Nikkon D200

shadow or light?

& it's too late

2009-10-25T21:08:00.003+08:00

All these shots are taken by me, and there's no digital editing.
copyright.
Day1.
photography by me, nikkon D200
work work work. taking photos has just reached a whole new level for me.
Anyways, went down to blackhole to catch naz gig, pretty awseome band, go check them out
www.myspace.com/thereposeband.

in any case, alot of things happened that day, really retarded stuff.

and here am i taking photos at bedok reservoir, the weather was a killer, but hey i still have to take photos. and i guess i got some pretty decent shots. I SAW A GIRL, I SMILE AT HER SHE SMILE AT ME
ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!
(yes yes, flame me)
photography by alex, nikkon D200
i feel that this last shot is not bad, but it would be a perfect picture if it had a fisherman fishing on the bridge.

photography by Alex, nikkon D200.

TO ALL YOU SEXY PEOPLE TAKING O LEVELS.

ALL THE BEST.

Mi Chiamo Alex

2009-10-23T21:00:00.002+08:00

Where are you tonight
I couldn't say goodbye
Your words still echo in my mind

The stars fall down lighting up the sky
If I had one more chance
I would have done it right

The sky falls down at your command
The city will roar with the sound of terror

And our world will crumble
At the sound of your voice
So take my words, it's not my choice
There's no looking back
Live for right nowI'm so far away (so far away from you)
With no difference between right or wrong
We're so far away (so far away)

The sky falls down
With a single glance
From your eyes,
We walk as strangers in these times

All of what we know is about to end
We'll keep on fighting, but we'll never win
There's no looking back

Crouching tiger hidden OUCH

2009-10-23T01:20:00.002+08:00

this is what we did after cell. quite retard but yeah. i was desperate for shots.
i'm feeling like shit now.
literally shit.
drained lethargic and the so on and so fourth.

anyways. too tired to blog
check out this photo!

Nikkon D200.
credits to Deon

why is 6 afraid of 7

2009-10-21T20:38:00.003+08:00

"We'll keep on fighting, but we'll never win."

i'm feeling abit sick.

quite bad day to be down with flu.

Today was a very fruitfull learning experience.

a good photograph isn't enough.

What's important that it must have a good composition to have a reason.

1 very good way of doing that is by including people to create life.

in addition it makes it challenging to take moving objects.

Anyway took this just now.

MEOW.

Park Min-young

2009-10-20T23:16:00.002+08:00

She's damn pretty.

Memphis may fire.

2009-10-20T13:25:00.003+08:00

From the almost 2 weeks that i've dissappeared from the face of the vitual world,

here i am back.

What can i say? it has really been quite torturing having to go about the holidays without the internet.

Not being able to talk to people/check my email/listen to myspace.

So my holiday has been pretty alright, slacked my ass off for the first 2 weeks, ton the night, and going out with my peeps, and then the 3rd week was a total bore. totally did NOTHING.

and well 4th week my modem broke down.

I swear this would be a disgrace to my blog. worked my ass off for the last 3 days of my holidays as jetstar promoter, and during 2nd day of work, there was this whole huge group of girls, like about 120-150 girls. There was this flash mob who did some dance thing for this korean dance gay group. i mean like seriously..

what the fuck.

just look at their pussy plastic face.

anyways, gotta go already.

gotta go for lessons.

toodles.

I miss you terribly.

All we need is a Reason.

2009-10-08T00:39:00.001+08:00

i miss you.

17th?

2009-10-04T23:57:00.003+08:00

I really need someone to talk to now.
I really don't know what to say. Turning 17 just doesnt seem anything special.
in fact. i just came back from a taxi ride, and had a good chance to reflect.
thanks to all those who had wished me.

i was thinking on what a waste my life is.
i was tempted to open the taxi door in the express way and just roll out and hopefully hit something hard.

& i'll probably spend the rest of eternity in hell.

i want change. & they say it's the only constant.

But why isn't it changing?

For all you who are stressed!

2009-10-02T02:14:00.003+08:00

Okay, before i put up video spams, i'll just note that
i scored a GPA of 3.07 out of 4,
fairly dissapointed cause my class got really screwed by the part time lecturer.
But hey, I'll still thank God in all circumstances.
or at the very best, i try.

cheerstolove&allthepainitrequires.

2009-09-26T12:11:00.005+08:00

I am in a mode of rage.
got home at 8am. slept without showering at around 9
woke up at 10, went back to sleep, and woke up at 11.
i'll tell you
i swear i could fucking kill the asshole who ever invented taiwanese and korean drama
i will fucking beat the shit out of you
cos you have brainwashed everyone who watches it.

Here i am
trying to get some sleep cos it's gonna be a long day ahead.
and my mum
wakes up
turns on the dvd player
and plays her fucking taiwanese drama.
and, i got woken up by it

I just realised the only place that i couldnt hear a single sound of the fucking chinese voice
was the toilet, which i gladly took a shower cos i felt disgusting.

and well, here i am online, i can't sleep for nuts
my eyes are red. and my mum doesnt care.
my hatred for these dramas just increased 10folds.

okay enough for ranting with vulgaraties, i'll get to what i have done.
went out yesterday to marina barrage
fly a kite. literally.

Well, we weren't trained in flying a kite, and it's not easy, not one bit. I know i know you think it's simple, try flying a 2 string kite. let me know if you could do it without anyone teaching u how to use it properly.
With much effort, we tried our very best to toss it in the air, it flew alright, but it didnt fly high.
But i guess i wouldn't call the day a failure, there's always the chatting and just getting to know each other more talks.

after the long day, we headed towards lao pa sha to eat. hahah
that place brings back alot of memories from my childhood, but well, the place isn't as packed as before. food was alright.

a last minute decision to ton over at airport,
slacked like nobody business while the Jc kiddos were doing their work,
Dominick Gloriously foot was injured.
packed our stuff, headed to yakkun to eat toast.
good stuff.

Finally finished using my film, cant wait to develop it.

Well, there were other things that happened to me during this week.
WEBCAM WITH SHIMIZYYYYY
HAHAHA, glad that we could finally see each other, come back to singapore alright! bring your commitments to singapore, heh!

& of course the collection of my school work, pretty satisfied with what i have done
Dear God,
thank you for really helping me in vpress,
i was really shocked to see my results for that module.
considering the fact that i made alot of mistakes and was already thinking of failing it.
thank you.

Okay, i gotta go already, wish my luck that i can survive the day.

so let's all try our best to fly.
but you know that we'll have to touch the ground
eventually.

Fight or Flight.

2009-09-25T00:04:00.003+08:00

So what's the point in all of this?

when you will never change.

I did it all, all for you

Hoping you would see.

i enjoyed my day.

sunny weather, cool breeze, cold waters,

what could i possibly ask more?

finally got myself darker, of all the times being stucked at home or in school rushing assignments,

and the little time to do anything sporty under the sun.

well, i'm just hoping that there would be a temp job of sort during this holidays, i wana meet up with people and stuff, but that'll just mean i'll burn more of my money to the ever consuming, consumer market.

I hope my days get better.

Dance Alex Dance

2009-09-18T14:23:00.008+08:00

HELLO ALL.
i can finally blog.
just wana spam photos
shooooo if you're not interested.

( this was the old front cover of the book, i dun have my current jpeg file of my cover. )

Just A glimpse of my work.

this is a book based on "You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I'll be the wings that keeps your heart in the clouds."

and here are more works, from the previous modules.

My 30 cm clay sculpture.(3d Art fun )

My stupid last minute poster for history of graphic design.

I will try my best to update this post when possible, if i manage to get all the pictures,
there's still plenty of stuff. but i'm cleaning my house, so i shall try to blog as much as i can.

Finally, it has come to a closure of my very 1st semester in the poly.

this gruelling 5/6 months has really been a fresh experience. I've never worked my ass off in my entire life. With extreme expectations, and a limited time given to us, we somehow manage to squeeze every inch of our entire life force to come up with something, which eventualy get rejected or corrected.

But what can i say? i still remeber vividly the very 1st day of my lessons,

eyes were exchanging different communications. Being quick to judge, and planning who to start a conversation with.

We were all waiting for the lecturer to come, and hopefully break the awkwardness within our souls, and make us start introducing one another, and to a twisted irony, the lecturer canceled classes that day.

How much we have moved from day 1?
i would say pretty much alot, Des school has been much of a family.
i wouldnt say less about the people there.

i mean, who wouldnt love having to spout nonsense for 12-13 hours in school as we are doing our work?and no, not for 1 day.

it usually occurs for a stretch of 1 week.
And how could i possibly forget the lack of sleep that we all have,

and no JC students, we sleep less then you, Try a total of 5 hours of sleep in a stretch of 3 days.

Well. About sumbission yesterday.

everything i wished that didnt go wrong, went wrong.

and it was pretty bad, but i'm thankfull that i consulted my lecturer a little too much, that she could remeber how i did my work.

(Y)

It's Pretty amazing how time flies, when you're not keeping track of time.I need to catch up with people now.

it's time to work/eat/sleep

anyone got job?

I'm trying my best to get by everyday without thinking of you.

2009-09-12T01:30:00.002+08:00

My Wishlist:
1. Straw Hat Fedora
2. A New Belt
3. Forever The Sickest Kids shirt
4. Attack Attack! shirt
5. and some love.

lazy to blog. so yeah! MY BIRTHDAY 4TH OCT OKAY! : D

Thank You for Nothing.

2009-08-28T18:48:00.006+08:00

GRAH, finally! blogger can put pictures up.
but guess what! i don't have the pictures i want to put up
HOW GREAT!

Anyways, With the much neglect i've given to this blog, i've forced myself to sit here and typed.
Seeing the really old guys who are still in shss really brings a smile to my face.

Seeing tai wei, kaiser walking to God knows where, and meeting Estee, Jack, Edward, Erwin, hmmm.. did i forget anyone else?

well, haven't seeen them since what? start of the year?

& i thank God that i was given the time to talk to timothy.

It's really quite a blessing to see him, i was talking about memories yesterday with the cell, and

mentioned timothy,

was a good thing that we manage to catch up abit, relive the old times.

Well, i hope he comes back to the youth service regularly( although I ain't in the youth group
it's good to know that you're well.

Okay School was a bitch, Cutting mounting boards for the stupid frame is quite irritating. To get perfect 14 by 14 squares is ridiculously hard, somehow my measurements always comes out to a 0.1cm error, or a 0.03cm error

oh okay, i just thought of what i should blog, with the limited pictures,

here is what i did for my 3d art, it's like a 1.2m sculpture.

"Change"

it's the only constant.

Cool right!

AND LOOK WHAT I'VE FOUND

HULK VERSION OF PIKACHU

HOW COOL IS THIS!

so in any case, it's been quite busy, with all this shit that's going on,

somehow i still have a sense of peace deep down, somewhere.

Gosh i really miss my peeps.

looking foward to see all of ya'll on monday man!

Peace out.

Rare,Medium Rare, Well done.

2009-08-07T13:33:00.001+08:00

Well, Brace yourself Readers for a deep post.( i doubt hardly anyone is reading this )
i shall start off with the usual mundane stuff.
Today marked the very first time eating Rare steak. My goodness, there was like blood over my spaghetti, how cool is that, & before u get any visual ideas the blood on my spaghetti wasn't like splattered over, it was just streaks and lines of blood.
Well, the taste of rare beef, it actually tastes awseome at the start when it enters your mouth.

However, being beef, it is only normal to chew it long before swallowing it, and well, let's just put it this way, after chewing the beef for a certain while, the taste of the blood is evident.

These pass few days haven't really been the best few days, frankly speaking, it's actually quite hectic, having to sleep at 2, and wake up at 8, is really not fun. Speaking of which,
my week has really been fruitfull, writing songs, somewhat halfway there, it's sounding good.

finding the time to blog today is really fortunate, it's like the life of designers, we all look forward to the weekends, and i know i'll still be doing my relief paper sculpture over the weekend. Which reminds me
monday's National Day, it wouldnt be very interesting, saw what they were gonna do,
but i guess national day isn't always about the planes boats performances or the fireworks isn't it?
it's all about being proud of our country, which i fail to do so.

Failure Failure Failure. So dissapointing life can be, it's quite sickening that the people u know don't even treat you like a human, they just think we have no emotions and just dump your whatever shit on us. Just so u know, i'm really struggling in my emotional side of wheter a onesided friendship like this can exist.But whatever, you wouldnt even care.
Indeed the sweetest thing is what we can never have. I'm moving on.

I'm moving on, so God forgive me for my mistakes, i'm just so flawed that i can't forgive forever. God i pray that you'll judge me mercifully when i die. I'm sorry father.

What a waste i am.

2009-07-28T14:22:00.000+08:00

Maybe we, Why don't we
sit right here for half an hour
speak about what a waste i am.

2009-07-24T00:24:00.001+08:00

It's good to know you're enjoying yourself.

Brightest

2009-07-17T22:38:00.001+08:00

If you find yourself here on my side of town
I'd pray that you'd come to my door
Talk to me like you don't know what we ever fought about
Cause I don't remember anymore
I just know that she warms my heart
And knows what all my imperfections are
And she said that I was the brightest little firefly in her jar

And I just know that she warms my heart
And knows what all my imperfections are
And she says that i am the brightest little firefly in her jar

I hate to say these things

2009-07-15T10:09:00.003+08:00

My friends are right,
there's really no point in going on.
it's pointless to carry on when all i get are dissapointments.
you know i hate to say this
but,
it's time to move on.

to think that i really trust you

2009-07-12T23:59:00.010+08:00

HEY ho peeps!
yes i'm here to blog about sat, you better be thankfull i have something to blog,
such a great timing , it's 12.18am monday, and i just found out that i have to sumbit something by 9am. I Am Doomed.
in any case, brace yourself for an amount of pictures!

Sat, Forthiscycle Ep, headed to *scape lab with dom, deon, fiq, johan.
basket, they all got their pre-sale tix, i had to get 1 at the door, well, 15 bucks was all worthed it.
My night was Just Awseome, with the minor dissapoinment.

Fire Away Samson!
this dude, is one of the actor from ubin boy/kidscentral. i seriously didn't think he could sing
but i was just stunned, great vocals dude.

Tacit Aria, yet another awseome band, their warm up songs were cool, the

song which went blame it on the al al al al al al alchol.

Trella! dear friend Bong, hahaha there's no need to say much, one of the fav local bands.

matthew smt smt and smt smt, forgot their names, not bad. catchy tunes. but it was so-so.

& to the highlight

For This Cycle, i won't talk much, great guy, good future ahead of him

the songs you guys would already know

but the AWSEOME SONGS was the esplanade song, and Rave.

those 2 songs were

the

highlight.

Met alfi after the whole gig.

dom suggested we catch amateur takes control Near SMU at night fest.

to cut the long story short, we didnt see them

some shit accident happened

1 actress fell of the stage

there was a halt to the event. and eventually caught the whole thing.

fireworks.

whilst, on the way to night festival, we slacked at i forgot the name of the place, saw some mini performance, pretty cool, but got boring soon enough.

Took 518 back, reached home late.

inspired once again.

soon enough, you'll hear from me in the local scene.

still in planning with dom.

& yes i am still damn bloody dissapointed.

you really made my heart drop.

enough said.

peace out.

2009-07-08T18:56:00.003+08:00

Note to Self :
your Smile takes my breath away
& leaves me with Nothing to say
you aren't like any other girl
that i've met in this whole world

The Morning of

2009-07-06T16:07:00.004+08:00

Now i Regret the day we met
& help me forget
your

name.

2009-07-02T21:49:00.001+08:00

"Hey there Beautiful.
please don't walk away
cause i am just too slow to say.."- Amber tree.

Yet another day of work, tired & weary.
i think i'm getting a headache, my head is feeling a slight spin from all the brain juiced being squeezed to the maximum from my head.
Ideation+ history studies is killer, no i'm not really dying of stress.
It's the lack of appeal of history studies which is making my everyday a drag.

In any case, i'm not gonna blog here about school.
i think it's no fun always talking about where you are, what you're doing.
i think,
speaking from your feelings is more like it.

& i won't be blogging much, i need to hop back to doing work.

toodles.

Dashboards.

2009-07-01T01:15:00.004+08:00

I'll be honest, The weather Last night was just too much of a memory flashback for me.
I was awake at 2am, was jolted with memories thanks to the weather.

There was something

just something about that breeze

that Reminds me so much of you.

the gentle breeze just like you.

The Wind Against your hair, as you sat with me by the bay.

I think i'm into the interest of Gummy Bears,

like if i own a camera, i'm gonna start taking shots of gummy bears doing interesting stuff.

Here's some.

Loneliness

Hannibal massacre

They did not die in Vain.

oh, & 1 more thing, PLEASE you are making me sick,
please stop trying to act like you are listening to Michael jackson stuff.

I can Bet that you've never listened or liked michael jackson like alot,

sure you've heard of the name before

sure you've heard of smooth criminal

sure you're doing your part to show symphaty for him

But Please stop putting up a facade would you? it's disgusting.

OH AND 1 MORE THING

WAHHH DAMN JIA LAT, DAMN ALOT PEOPLE CUTTING BANGS NOW,

I WANA SAY, IT'S DAMN AWFULL, PLEASE DON'T CUT IT CAN.

bangs is like worse then h1n1 la! like some airborned virus shiz that like everyone suddenly cuts bangs.

omg.

2009-06-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

And hey darling

I hope you're good tonight

And I know you don't feel right when I'm leaving

Yeah I want it but no I don't need it

Tell me something sweet to get me by'

Cause I can't come back home till they're singing

La, la la la la la la'

Til everyone is singing

If you can wait till I get home

Then I swear to you

That we can make this last

(La la la)

If you can wait till I get home

Then I swear come tomorrow

This will all be in our past

Well it might be for the best

And hey sweetie

Well I need you here tonight

And I know that you don't want to be leaving me

Yeah you want it but I can't help it

I just feel complete when you're by my side

But I know you can't come home 'til they're singing

La, la la la la la la'

Til everyone is singing

La, la la la la la la

If you can wait till I get home

Then I swear to you

That we can make this last

(La la la)

If you can wait till I get home

Then I swear come tomorrow

This will all be in our past

Well it might be for the best

You know you can't give me what I need

And even though you mean so much to me

I can't wait through everything

Is this really happening?

I swear I'll never be happy again

And don't you dare say we can just be friends

I'm not some boy that you can sway

We knew it'd happen eventually

La, la la la la la la

Now Everybody's singing

La, la la la la la la

2009-06-27T22:35:00.001+08:00

A straight Pathway

no where to turn

no where to run

no one to turn to.

Inertia, a dangerous force that should not be messed with.
I'm back home,
was out headed to cathay, to watch kxy perform at ben & jerry,
but with much failure, i went to the wrong cathay.
Uber dissapointment,
so i basically woke myself up from home,
rushed down to cathay, and only to find myself stepping there less than five minutes.

Things i found on my way to cathay,
1. It's so sad, teens do not appreciate michael jackson.
i was sitting on the bus, looking at what this girl was reading, it was a TEEN magazine, & to my horror, she totally skipped like 3 pages worth of michael jackson story, and guess what she flipped the pages too
jolyn tsai
sia
tsia
whatever.

2. Even Married man rolls their eyes and look at other women when their wife is next to them.

When i was on my way back

1. Retarded people have no manners

2. Retarded people where their spectacles like how people wear shades

3. Fluent Chinese is essential to ordering good local food.

& a moment of Silence for Michael jackson...

Back to the issue on inertia, i experienced first hand what inertia felt,
No... i did not get hit by a car, or was in a car accident.
I was simply on an excelator headed up, and BAM, it just stop in it's tracks,
everyone was like flying forward/upwards.

to my suprise at such a slow speed, the effects of inertia can be felt tremendously.

i've given some thought about it,
i think i really miss you.

2009-06-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

MY DAPHNE LOVES DERBY ALBUM IS HEREEEEE
YAY!!!!
short post here, in case u kiddos didn't know,
i cut my hair,
yes
it's short now
boohooo

2009-06-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

MEET MY BEST FRIEND

hello all,

meet my best friend, she's really friendly

somewhat attractive

somewhat "fun"

somewhat, oh did i mention attractive? i did didn't i

somewhat, cheery?!?

in any case, as u all know, this girl is pluto

she is a really really interesting girl, i'm not being sacarstic,

she really is somewhat interesting, in her own special way!

With much effort of daily conversations, i've grown so much closer to her,

as days, weeks, and months fly by, i began to feel attatched to her somewhat,

with much misleading to her strange ways, i began to think somewhat that she has some feelings for me too,

then

there

was

biggest

assumption...

ever since then, i've changed so much

and there's so much thing to talk with her about, and always coming back to the topic of our younger days,

she

wierd.

but in any case,

love for someone is the road to anyone's downfall.

2009-05-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

AND I'LL HAVE YOU KNOW I'M SCARED TO DEATH
yes life is a bitch when it really wants to.
life is a dissapointment

just recently as i was walking home alone,
i had a breather, ample time to think and flash on my memories.
funny isn't it how we all want to be something, but you just can't?
funny isn't it that you've always had a perfect little dream of having the girl of your dreams right there beside you, but all fails?
funny isn't it how you really feel so chained to the world, that you are unable to do shit?
funny isn't it how life is a drag and that your evil self wants to take over so that you can live it short?

to battle the evil me.

world domination

one fan at a time.

2009-05-23T02:08:00.000+08:00

To start things off, i had awkwardly late dinner
well
dinner at the time you're probably sleeping

YES YOU!

so, it has been a dissapointing week, my imba streak has gone down the drain
thanks to dear david, your proportions ARE SO BLOODY HARD TO CAPTURE
and david david david
why did u ever had curly hair?
it was so hard to capture
( in case you all dont know, it's a statue of david, u know? the david and goliath david? )
yes, freeaking imba people in my class, ARGH

Without further a do,
what u all wanted me to talk about

TODAY I SHALL TALK ABOUT NATURE

hell no, why the hell would i want to talk about nature?

the weather is a killer
Anwyays, i shall dedicate this short part of my blog to Abrie
CHEER UP KAYSZSZSZ!!! DUN STRESSS WORHZXXZXZX!!
MUZZ LIGHTENZ UPZ WORHZXZXXZ!!!
SMILEZEZXXXZ!!

hope this cheers u up abit.
but really, do lighten up kay? i'm always here to listen.
i'm never doing twit ever again.
"this i swear, bravery and strength goes with her name"

& if i find my way
through the darkest of days.

2009-05-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

SCRew Livejournal

why can't they be as userfriendly as blogger,

really i don;t mind using livejournal

but it's just taht stupid uploading pictures causes a pain in the ars.

so yeah

& yes

he is gay

ahhh..

the old days...

2009-05-08T10:32:00.000+08:00

YESSSSSSSSSS I KNOWWWW I'VE BEEN NEGLECTING THIS BLOG LIKE HOW I NEGLECTED SUNRISES

nahhh
screw it, i still love sunsets, they're the best.
okay i know that the last time i posted was really ages ago,
i really didnt have the mood to blog, with the addition that i had no time!!
RAWR!!
OH in case you didn't know

I'VE BECOME FAMOUS!!!!

yeah right! ( Alex stop deceiving yourself, like seriously )
well, it's not that i became famous,

i've created a facebook
strictly to grab photos and maybe talk here and there,
screw it dont you there poke my facebook account, i will slap you

well, from the time i didnt blog to now, it's a big change for me,
really had to adjust myself to sleeping awfully late doing work,
and yes, i'm still nincompoopishly busy,
i've been hearing complaints of JC kiddos saying they're busy and blah blah blah,
well, i won't be a critic, everyone has their fair share and strength to take a certain amount of stress,

i've still been trying to write my other song, but it's really not helping much,
i can't even finish my assignments, i still feel so weary now blogging,
THE only reasy i am blogging now, is that my 1st tutorial for today is cancelled, longer sleep FTW!!!
seriously awseome stuff.
well, school has been really a bitch,
nononon.. the school isn't a bitch,
the weather is

the school is pretty alright,i've not really gotten used to the lifestyle yet,
and by bitch i mean that why did they seperate me from the shss people who are studying in vsc.
but anyways, they put my socialbility to the test, and i've already made friends with my entire class of 26 people,
so yes, i've pass the test?

i'll take this really precious time to make a really lonnnnggg blooogggggg postttt.....
haha! a few things i wana highlight.
JOANNA CHUAAAA
I WILL SMACK YOU!! WHY DID YOU CALL ME A MANWHORE!! RAWR!!!!

it was really a refreshing thing meeting her in school that day,
it really has been like what? 3-4 years since we've seen each other face to face,
and hahahaha!! she become a u n t i e le, haha! so many people call her old,
LOL!! STILL GOT KIDS SOMMMORE!! and noooooo you're cold jokes dun pune my jokes!!
RAWR!!!
and yesss.. i really do miss the times we jammed!!
having to manage 7 subjects of mugging and practicing for chapel really wasn't easy at all.

actually, i don't really feel like highlighting other stuff, i'm actually gonna run for time already,
got tutorials yo!!
hahahaha!!
and support me yo!! go listen to my myspace!! : )))) www.myspace.com/deargreyskies

I WAS CHASING COMETS WITH A BUTTERFLY NET

really.. it's such a painful distance
not seeing you, your unique laugter
and with the sight that you're having so much fun.

2009-04-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

A Year on an Airplane (acoustic) - Daphne Loves Derby w/Scott & Scott

2009-03-13T12:52:00.001+08:00

It is certainly true that many people makes my mind tickle.
funny how we say things to criticize or comfort one another
but we're all the same when we don't see each other

Dear hypocrisy,

have u ever wondered how much damage u do to peoples lives?
the insults u build in us to make statements that we ourselves carry out?

the funny thing about you that it is so definitive in people i know,whom i care,and sometimes
whom i trust.
however. you seem to grow stronger as time flies by,
with bigger heartaches pumping through my chest
which leaves me mood-less, and wanting to give up on every other thing in life
hypocrisy, you seem to be crawling in everyone's perfect little life,

this comes to show that finally.
i see who are the true people.
not those who let friendships slip by our hands due to the washing away of time.
scrubbing and eroding our memories.

With Regrets,
Alex.

2009-03-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hey all!

okay this will be a boring blog post. so just see the screenshots.

yes it's another in game post.

My favourite screenshot.

Bloody nice right the view?

iarrowrain

2009-03-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

"The greed
is tempting yet you risk it all
Excuses drip of the tip of your
tongue."

I'm backk!!yes, i've been working, and my fingers are badly damaged with all the peeled skin dry skin,cuts, blood,etc..
and so i'm slightly richer now,but i'll still hvae to earn more
so much things to buy so little cash,
oh well,
i've so much on my heart recently,
i pretty much want to meet up with so many people!

1.Mindy, yes you!since you're in JC, we haven't been chatting.

2.Joanne, although i met u to pass you my SS txt book, we still must hang out k!!

3.the dudes,jack,smelly, we still haven't makan dinner leh, it's been awhile.

4.Serene lim, and nahh, she probably won't have the time to meet me.

5.Abrie!!! haha u seem to be strugling in school!! haha!

6. Sam, we need to jam soon man.

okay la, that's not much
but yeah,
i'm hungry, i shall go eat now, have fun reading my boring blog,
toodles.

Sketches of Love

2009-03-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

If only i could find a thirty minutes somewhere to just stay there.
just thirty minutes more to sunset
just to spent that moment i had with you.
just to see your smile
just to see you laugh
just to see you drag and shuffle your feet on the sand.
just to see you twirl and spin with no care of the world
just to see you once again makes me feel brighter than the sun
but.

Sketches of Love

2009-03-01T23:37:00.001+08:00

I don't know what i should feel.
everytime i'm online i'm just waiting for you to start a conversation with me
but the funny thing is that neither of us does.
i have no idea what you're doing with your life now
be it studying in jc or poly.
i really wana know so badly.
but i just don't wana talk
u always seem to take me for granted, yes, i know of forgiveness.
no wait
knowing is not enough.

2009-02-23T20:48:00.000+08:00

Hello friends.
this post was meant for saturday.
yes,basically i headed to church for abit of service
and haha to my suprise i saw kimberly, not you kimberly
another one
hahaha, and yes. i was already walking out of church and she asked me to walk her to church,
and asked me to be a gentleman
so what to do?
walked her in whilst carrying the balloon for her
chat abit haha.

& to the highlight.
postbox ep launch.
A W S E O M E

and omgosh.
the host was DAMN HOT.
yes i know it's not like me to say this. but ask Dom. he will tell u the same thing.
( Dom your astronija disc. you lucky fella. )

no offense. but lazy susan was average only. it was too loudish and i couldn't make out what the singer was singing.
it was all "Bang Bang Bang "

& to lunar node.
they're damn good.
not what i expected.
a band which doesn't do vocals.
but guitar mini solos'
pretty power.

the guitarist.
pedal boards after pedal boards after pedal boards after pedal boards after..

ariffffffff,the lead gutarist of postbox.
Good stuff man!
ncie melodies he could make out.

& she's damn pretty i swear.

lead singer of postbox, Sam

FOR THIS CYCLE!

yes i swear he's damn good.

wei wen has awseome vocals.

rock on with acoustic man!

oh yes, Isa.

he's really a funny dude.

u know the thing they do for weddings? like they throw flower?

he threwed his tissue paper with his mucus

OH OH and this joke he made.

the people were asking Isa to tell us a joke.

so he was like saying

" i don't have alot of jokes leh "

"oh okay okay "

" you want a joke? "

"look to my left " ( the dude behind isa in the photograph. )

gosh.

evil but nice.

Anyways.

the whole performance was just fantastic.

and it sparked off the urge to start a local band.

although i prefer solo acoustic too.

but well, deon and dominick got sparked of too

so well

thanks for reading.

till the next rock off

toodles.

2009-02-17T23:47:00.000+08:00

hey ho, yes i've been neglecting this blog for some time.
anyways, here's the lyrics of a song i wrote, pretty nice.
let me know if u wana hear it.

Beauty in The Dawn.

The Ocean breeze
Makes me wana cry myself to sleep
I can't say goodbye
It was the first time
You caught me by suprise
Oh God open her eyes

Hey there Beautiful
Please don't walk away
I am just to weak
to say.

to say I love you
i want you
i need you
by my side.

Yea I saw you that day
You were dancing your heart out to me
Girl i want you please
The sun has sunk below
Swallowed by the ocean whole
Finally the moonlight starts to show

That you are Beautiful
So please don't walk away
Cause i am just to weak
to say

To say I love you
I want you
I need you
By my side.

2009-02-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

&

And honestly, I have been begging for answers
That you and only you can give to me
A voice crying loud I've been crying for days now
And as I start to run, I stop to breathe
And I was nearly scared to death
Why you left in paragraphs
The words were nearly over us
You stop and turn and grab your bags

And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall
like the ashes of cigarettes
And every waves drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question "Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence
mean nothing to no one but me?

As hours move to minutes
And minutes take longer to break
I will be desperately awaiting
But my tongue won't fall apart
And we've been sitting here for hours
All alone and in the dark
So let me think of to word it
Is it too soon to say 'perfect'?
If I could find another thirty minutes somewhere
I'm sure everything would find me
All that's left is just to sing

And I'll be here by the ocean
Just waiting for proof that there's sunsets and silhouette dreams
All my sand castles fall
like the ashes of cigarettes
And every waves drags me to sea
I could stand here for hours
Just to ask God the question "Is everyone here make-believe?"
With a tear in His voice
He said, "Son, that's the question."
Does this deafening silence
mean nothing to no one but me?

And you'll sing to me sweet until then
I may never sail Virginia again
Alas this current moves slow for me
this much you must know...
we'll meet again
And I'll, I'll have you know I'm scared to death
Tell me once again that you will love me till the death
And should I die, you swear that you will come for me
As I fade away, you reach out your arms
And please don't let me go
And please don't let me go